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Over the years, I have seen friends and family fall in and out of love, go through tough times, or periods of bliss. Especially when it comes to break-ups, it's quite characteristic the way in which each person reacts in a unique way, depending of course on the circumstances, but also on each individual personnality. Some people roll up into a ball and hide from everyone, or break down in tears on friends' sofas, or go on shopping sprees, or go away on holiday. Some seek refuge with their family, or get counselling, others go straight out and look for someone else, be it for quick meaningless sex or for a long meaningful relationship. And some lash out at anything that moves, like a wounded animal that bites, hating anyone who looks happy when they are not...
It's a very personal thing. But still, everyone needs to get over the pain and/or dissapointment of a break-up, you have committed yourself to someone, and it didn't work out. Whatever the reason, you're bound to feel dissapointed ; misplaced trust and affection, commitment to someone who didn't deserve it or didn't give back as much as you gave them, there are many things that can lead to regrets.
I'm beginning to realise that this is also what uis happening to me at the moment, not with my dear darling husband, thank God, but at work. I have just left the second job in 6 months, the first one I left I had been at for five and a half years, that's quite a long relationship. I had put a lot of time, energy and even money into the company, as I was, and am still, a shareholder. The company had been in troble for many years, and at one point the employees were invited to invest in it, to help it continue. And we made it. But after a few years, I began to realise that loyalty and hard work were not considered to be qualities valuable enough to deserve a decent pay, for that, you had to sneak, threaten, brag, suck up, and various other things that I'm no good at. I got offered something better, out of the blue, and so I decided to leave.
So, step one, a partner that didn't appreciate me and my efforts. I left him for someone good looking that promised a lot. Unfortunately, that someone, that company, didn't live up to their promises, and was actually quite ugly under the goodlooking outsides. I left them too bfore it was too late.
Now I'm single, professionally speaking, and looking for "love", and I realise that just like after a break-up, I'm now rather wary of goodlooking companies that promise a lot, or companies that sound like one of my exs. I think I may need a little time to get over this...
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